First Views of the light

Well, it happened today. The first of a series of strokes that is going to stay till i leave. It was weird, though not unexpected. The problem was that those genious doctors never did succeed in explaining to me the real feeling, as if the world stopped all of a sudden and you start revolving round and round,, round and round, till you fall down and all that stops, and you are left with an unconcious self and a supersensitive brain,, bloody headache! Well the rest will come, but now i know what to expect, don't I. Should i donate my body to the Medicine Department? My eyes are already set to ditribute light, what about other parts. Is this the desire to keep atleast a bit of myself alive or is it sacrifice? I think it's sense. Just.....................